// your hands fits in mine like it’s made just for me
but bear this in mind, it was meant to be
We do not hold hands often as it makes my palms sweaty. But, in the few times that we have had our hands intertwined, it has made me believe in fairy tales. I might not have shoes like Cinderella that fits only me. Instead, I have got your hands that fit me perfectly. All those years of watching cliched romantic movies and hoping if it will ever happen to me get fulfilled in those few minutes.
// i know you’ve never loved
the crinkles by your eyes when you smile …
but I’ll love them endlessly
I used to hide my face every time I laugh because I was afraid to show how I looked at that moment. You moved my hands with care to open the view of my face to see my smile. I remember the first time you did that; you were awestruck and, that made me blush. You loved seeing me smile and showered me with compliments. We laugh and tease each other endlessly that has given me memories that measure more than infinity.
// i know you never loved the sound of your voice on tape …
but you’re perfect to me
My imagination of my voice was a deep one which got shattered into a million pieces when I recorded myself and heard it. That was when all the consciousness and insecurity over my voice started to appear. I managed to steer clear of lengthy phone calls, audio notes and singing along to the songs during long drives. Then you came along and changed everything. You convinced me that my voice was soothing with the warmth of your words, and I believed it. Now, I do not shy away from all this instead enjoy doing it without a care in the world.
// you’ll never love yourself half as much as I love you
and you’ll never treat yourself right darlin’, but I want you to
You taught me that love is not always rainbows and unicorns but like a rose adorned with thorns that we find beautiful. I have found it difficult to accept myself, but through your eyes, I could see myself differently. I learnt to love myself a little harder when I saw you holding on to me though I had scars. I have become a better version of myself, and it is because of you. You made me love myself before making me fall in love with you. That is why I like me better when I am with you.
Every time I hear this song, I remember you. You have made me embrace these little things about myself that I never would have. Your Christmas present this year is a box of gratitude wrapped perfectly with your favourite Avengers wrapping paper. (sorry, I spent all the gift money on ice cream this year *chuckles nervously*.)
This piece is inspired by the song Little Things by One Direction.
World of Jeana 