Numb. I have lost the sensation and feeling for every part of my body. It felt like someone had pulled out all the emotions inside me. I was nothing but an empty shell; hurting from within yet unable to sense. It might not make sense. Unlike joy, it is difficult while trying to express your … Continue reading Numb
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Red
A log of 20 seconds in my life L-20 The lights changed from red to green, On cue, I started walking - all alone and, The hair at the nape of my neck stood up L-18 I was right in the middle of a crossroad I turned to make sure I had time That was … Continue reading Red
midnight
Have you ever met people whose stories you hold close to your heart? The ones you meet by chance. The ones with tales that make your heart heavy when you look back at them. The ones who look cheerful whenever you have a conversation with them during the day. The ones who opened up only … Continue reading midnight
hide & seek
My favourite game as a kid was hide and seek. It was a thrilling experience to run away and hide in the most obvious place to camouflage yourself. As an adult, I have mastered the game and can hide pretty well. So, where do I hide? I scribble words on paper and throw them right … Continue reading hide & seek
insecure
You have heard me talk about my insecurities haunting and keeping me up at night, but little do you know what they are. I let my mouth run when I’m nervous and leave you with secrets I never meant to share. You can be a stranger, and this can be oversharing, but that thought does … Continue reading insecure
unhinged
Tick tock tick tock, the first half of the day goes by with my emotions unhinged. As the hour hand makes a 360-degree turn, and the clock strikes midnight, when I’m left in my room all alone, my thoughts take a 180-degree turn, suddenly, I am eager to flip through my insecurities, like a photo … Continue reading unhinged
Love & Lies
Read hundreds of love stories,watched thousands of love dramas, heard a million love songs,and it still hasn’t been enough toconvince me about l-o-v-e. Received a few love letters,filled with honey-laced poetic phrases,having the same underlying message-pretentious and delusional, it is hard to convince me they ain’t l-i-e-s. Committed myself to three relationships,hopeful at least one would show … Continue reading Love & Lies
Grief
‘Twas your typical day. The sun was out, and the birds were chirping away happily. The sky was painted in a perfect shade of blue that hypnotises you into staring at it for hours altogether. The weather was pleasant, with a slight breeze to keep you fresh on a sunny day. I would have never … Continue reading Grief
The graveyard within me
I have a graveyard within me,When a day leaves a bad taste in my mouth,After the initial wallowing in anguish and sorrow,I tighten my shoelace, pull up my gloves, and change into a t-shirt I hate,I struggle a little to stuff the memories from the bad day into my backpack, andThen I’m on my way … Continue reading The graveyard within me
The aroma of roast coffee
The aroma of roast coffee pulled me into a cafe / I found a quiet spot at one corner/ After ordering a frappuccino, I tried to get comfortable with the place/ I opened my activity book, awkwardly/ But, I had my back towards everyone/ the world, perhaps *pfft*/ I tried not to worry about the … Continue reading The aroma of roast coffee
World of Jeana 